Today has been an emotional roller coaster ride and it’s only 1 p.m.
- I went to bed at 12:30 because I felt like my life was pointless.
- Life felt oddly complacent and surreal when showering, preparing all of my folders, and walking to Analysis.
- I had an existential crisis in Quantum Mechanics because there is no objective reality, no “hidden variables,” and that a) contradicts everything I’d like to believe about the world, and b) what.
skippedam currently skipping my research group meeting because of said existential crisis and because I am not prepared, making me feel even more useless and unmotivated.
- Instead of attending said meeting I am making cookies for my suitemates like my mom used to for the first day of school every year, and it’s making me cry because I’m lonely and an adult.